So, I was pretty sure after a year living in Munich, that I wouldn't leave this place. And yet, I am preparing to move again. This time to the north, to Hamburg. It was really hard to take the decision because I love Bavaria so much; the food, the culture, the people, the mountains; but the truth is, that I wasn't happy with my position at work. Yes, I did like my colleagues, but my tasks were pointless and nobody cared about them in the company. My tasks became extremely pointless since my boss decided to kill the project where I work. But the worst part is that there's no replacement for the product I maintain, and there won't be any for the next couple of years, so there's a fight between my boss who doesn't want to maintain the product, and those who used for their own projects to keep it alive. On top of that, the environment at the company doesn't look very nice. Since we were acquired, two factions raised withing the company and a power struggle is ravaging right now. The problem is, I don't even know who belongs to these factions, since they are playing their games at the top of the ladder, and the ones below one realize that something is not right anymore.
At the end, what really took the decision for me to leave, was the fact that my boss never let me change the project. Actually, when I resigned, he asked me what could he do to make me stay. I told him I would like to take on another project, and he just let me go, and on top of that he decided to outsource my project. That hurt, a lot, why couldn't he just outsourced before and let me go work in another project?
So, with all that into account, it really comes as a relief the fact that I am going to a new company. But I have to admit that I'm scare as hell. Over the last months, my job hasn't required that much from me, but this new job will, and now I am scared I won't be able to give as much as I should. We will see about at, but I am scared. And that is really the reason I start this blog, to vent my frustration and fear on what happens over the next weeks.